To Paula & Jail Bait: It was only time for me to understand what happened with everyone else in your life... gone

It's time I let everything out on a certain subject I hate being upset at this person so much. It's not even that I'm pist or angry it's more of me being disappointed completely because I thought she was better than that. Being friends with someone so long always has its ups and downs of course but I don't think we've really had any disagreements. I consider her like my sister and always there to look out for her. This time I've had to wash my hands and totally cut loose because I think she's making a serious mistake.

I'm talking about Paula of course. The girl who I've known for about four years now. I don't think I've ever felt so bitter towards her in my life. I don't even know where to start. I was so excited to come back to Miami because even though I had close friends here in Miami like Cadovy, Gomez, Yunis (was intown), Javi, and a few others I knew I'd always have Paula to spend quality time with. In the beginning things were kind of distant because she worked so much and was always running around doing errands. Things only seemed to get much worse because I realized I never really hung out with Paula but when she called to do something I would drop all my plans to go run the errands for her glasses, pick out her glasses, and etc... We use to hang out and do all sorts of things and eventually just sit back and talk shit about w/e.

Mid-summer I left Miami because shit was getting me down. Everyone was getting so boring and repetitive. Paula never really hung out and ever since she got a boyfriend it got worse and worse. I understand that when I was dating Katie and stuff I didn't really talk to Paula much but when I was in town I would make an effort to see her and hang out with her. Now that I've been in town for almost 2/3 of the summer I think I can count how many times I've hung out with her. Not to mention the times I've hung out with her alone and without Alfy must not exceed 2-3 times. She would come to me about all her issues with this new boyfriend of hers. I listened to everything she had to say and she asked if she should break up with him. I told her that straight up this guy was not worth her time he was nice and everything but she wouldn't be happy with him if she was saying all this crap already. Of course she didn't listen and started playing it by ear. The biggest mistake she's made. When is she going to see that all her close friends really don't find her to be such a friend anymore. She's sold everyone out for this guy and she talks so much crap about him while he isn't around.

I love Paula to death and would lay everything down for this girl but I can't when I've given her advice and she's totally spit in my face with it. I don't want to lose her as a bestfriend but day by day I find reason not to pick up her calls, put my other friends first because they show more effort, and just stop calling her period. I'll do anything for that girl even if it means driving to Naples every week-end on my own just to make sure things are in order over there when she leaves. Yet now I wonder she found all the things she's done for me were a burden. It doesn't seem like I'm dealing with the same Paula. Things are now clicking on how she had a million and one friends but now she only had Barbie and Lori left when I got back. Even now I've noticed Barbie is nowehre to be found, haven't even met her. Lori has had enough of it and found a new friend that will be there no problem. What is Paula thinking she's loosing the few friends she had left all just because of some guy who she has always talked crap about. Is it really worth it? Its just a matter of time till I give up on her. More and more I see her making more mistakes.

She eventually broke up with him. The kid flipped out. I swear to God kid if your reading this and I see you say the shit you told her when she broke up with you I'll come after. Paula is my little sister and no one talks to her like this or a woman for that matter: "Alfy: its that.. right now.. I hope u fucking die.. Alfy: ur a fucking stupid bitch and u don't want anyone 2 be happy.. Alfy: I hope u fucking falling off the planet and I never see u again.. ur not a fucking good person."
Straight up your a piece of shit for saying the things you said and if I find out you ever pull one of those on her again I'm coming for your lil punk ass new money piece of shit. I thought you were a nice guy but truth is you don't know anything of being nice because if you were in fact real about it you'd never say anything like that to anyone especially a woman.

Of course what happens like within two days, Paula gets back with him. That's when I knew she was doomed. It's as if she was getting back with him out of pity and he totally must of loved it. It hurt to know that she was so ignorant to get back with this guy after all of that. I felt back when I asked Paula what she was doing and her only response was "Sometimes you have to be unhappy to make others happy" are you serious?! If you want to play that game and sacrifice your feelings for some little kid who doesn't know the true definition of a relationship is then wow Paula that's sad. The kid needs to grow up and realize wow maybe Paula isn't the type of girl I should be dating. There's plenty of girls out there that would love a guy who would drop everything for them, call them a million times a day, drop all there friends for a guy, have someone tell them what to wear, flip out if they find out she not with him, and expect to be with him everyday. I just find it hilarious how this kids parents even realized the real picture when I came over and noticed how Paula is completely different from him and isn't so black and white like he is. He's the close minded conservative and she's the liberal open minded type. It works but not when your so possessive and on top of the person. Trust me kid I've made the mistake of doing that and your not smart enough to realize how you have it so wrong and just need time and experience to learn.

Eventually I get annoyed and stop picking up peoples calls because I refuse to deal with all this bullshit around me. Days pass and I see an opportunity to hang out with Paula while Jail Bait wasn't around cause straight up I miss spending time with Paula alone. Of course one of her friends is there but its ok she seems like she is another trapped case like Paula but aware of it a lot more. She acknowledges and rebels at times and goes out but funny how similar the situation cause the b/f called and seemed pist as hell that she was at Paula and wasn't with him LOL. It was quite ironic yet funny. Yet I wasn't too happy cause within 10min of being there of course her phone rings and she ventures off and disappears for about an hour. Paula's friend leaves and I get stuck there doing the thing I hate the most watching TV for like another 45min alone in her living room. I finally can't take it anymore cause I'm almost positive its Jail Bait on the phone. I can't even spend time with Paula alone at her house without him intruding. I'm fucking tired of it and I just left and told her I'm not some little bitch who puts up with crap like lil boy toy. I was fucking pist off but I don't hold grudges all I needed was an apology then. She calls and leaves a message how she broke up with him and actually seemed like this was for real this time.

Thinking that now maybe we'd be able to hang out on occasion now I tried calling her to chill and stuff. Yea she definitely works a lot and always on the beach. Then I keep finding out that she's still spending time with Alfy. Like no joke every time I call or call Lori I hear that she's with him. How he keeps inviting her to dinner with his mom and stuff. Hey fucking kid don't you get it your not her boyfriend. I understand you can be friends and all but like spend so much time together isn't how it works, you're only trying to spend time with her still so she gets back with you because its supposedly "different". Later on I get a call on how she doesn't want to go on this trip and Alfy's mom insist that she has to go. Are you serious you don't force anything like that especially when Paula's mom says no. Just shows you how classy you are kid. She pretty much doesn't know what to do and its the result of her "playing it by ear" because she never was up front with how she really felt and never broke up with him much earlier when she said she was going to do it but felt BAD for you kid that's how much of a good person she is.

This past week-end every time I would call to hang out you'd blow me off then realize Alfy was with you. Then have Lori next to me and you'd totally ignore her and pretty much avoid telling her that Alfy was with you. Its retarded really your losing your friends because of this kid. Just be straight up with us all maybe we wouldn't leave like the rest. Even to the point where we were talking about going to the movies just the three of us you all of a sudden say ohh Alfy bought me a ticket already. Are you serious its a fucking smack in the face and straight up I'm not dealing with that shit anymore. Yesterday Lori asked me to goto the show with you guys cause she wanted me to be there. Straight up I told her I didn't want to because of all the shit you've pulled with this kid. If your not dating him anymore then you wouldn't still be hanging out with him so much. You probably still go over his house and such like you use too. It's not the smartest thing to do before you leave to school. It's one thing to have a boyfriend and spend time with him but its another to sell out the friends you've had for longer and will do 10x more for you than that little kid. But hey its your life and you do what you want with it just don't be surprised if we don't trust you or sell you out now because other people have become better friends.

Father, Son, and Holy Spirit

Jay-eM